believe in yourself!

i just needed to comment on a thought that has been running through my head...it's upsetting to me when people have low self-esteem and no self confidence. i have this roommate and she's gorgeous and has the cutest personality. i can talk to her about anything and we always stay up talking. but she just doesn't believe in herself. she's always getting down on herself and saying she's never going to get married cause no guy would date her. and it kills me to hear her say this cause she's darling! she sends me happy good morning messages everyday! she's just the cutest girl, but she sabatoges herself i've come to find. anything things start to get good for her she messes them up cause she's scared. which is understandable, i've been there and i'm sure everyone has. she also waaaaay overthinks things, which this too is understandable. i am guilty of this. but she does it tons more than needed. i just wish she could learn to stick up for herself and see her beauty, inside and out. she's so nice too, which is good to a certain extent, but she is often taken advantage of. especially by her roommate. it drives me crazy! she gets this quiet, little whiny voice and says things like "baby....could you maybe drive me to class today?" and she is way too nice to say no! [ps calling someone baby like she does drives me CRAZY!] anyway...i love her to death and i wish she could just realize how great she is.

on a different note...guys, i don't remember being this happy. ever. i even played a terrible soccer game two nights ago and i couldn't even get angry about it. and that's weird. i always get really mad when i play bad. i am just sooo happy! life is soo good! my mom called me a slut last night...hahaha but she was kidding. it was funny though. last weekend after the superbowl a few of us went to brian's house in ogden talked with his parents and sister. i really like his family! they are way funny. aggie basketball is ranked in the top 25 and we went to a fun game last night! i woke up in the middle of the night, well at 4, and got a drink and looked out the window and there was this cop sitting in the parking lot right behind my car. it really freaked me out! what was going on at 4 in the morning that required a cop to be there? it was kinda scary. well, that's all i really have for now!

ps can someone tell me how to get the google thing? i don't even know what it's called...the thing where you can see who is reading your blog? hah thanks!

"and when i first met you i never would have

imagined that i would have such strong

feelings for you. i never would have thought

that i would miss being by your side or get

butterflies when someone mentions your name."