back in the 801

today i rushed home after a shorter than planned meeting with my counselor, packed as quick as i could, faced the wrath of joe for leaving early, hopped on my bike and was headed home. i was feeling good. there was no rain and i was on a roll. i get in the canyon and what else would happen? i run out of gas. just my luck. so i turn my bike to reserve, turn around and head the 4 miles back to the nearest gas station. i fill up and finally i'm really on my way. things are going good. my music is turned up loud and i'm singing, probably more like screaming the songs at the top of my lungs. funny thing is i wasn't in a car so everyone with their window down could hear the beautiful singing. i'm in the canyon and it starts raining. should i stop? no i can see blue skies ahead. whew, got out of that patch of rain ok. i stopped in brigham city to call my dad and tell him all was well. i'm off again. singing and driving. nothing better. good weather. then i get to centerville. and boy was it raining. same question, do i stop? i see blue skies! but it took longer to get to these skies and it was raining harder? should i take cover in the safety of an underpass? no, i'm tough i can ride through it. and i did, but i probably looked really good. i had to bend over so that my face was behind the windshield, which didn't really help cause my bike doesn't exactly have windshield wipers. but at least my face wasn't getting hit right? so i get of the freeway and i stopped to see my girls at socccer practice. it was like reuniting with family. all the girls ran up and gave me hugs! i miss them oh so much. after talking there for awhile and a short ride, i was home. home sweet home. i haven't been here since labor day. we ordered pizza, a longtime friday night ritual. stilll the same as when i left!

then it was off to the homecoming football game. which was a little weird but it was almost like old times. joce, ashley, russell, casey, victoria, sam, austin, jeff, max, john, alyssa, annie, gail, taylor, suzanne, ali and i were all there. i saw of bunch of younger kids i hadn't seen in forever. we didn't stay too long and it was off to club dan's! where else?! we got our donuts and milk and it's off to the elevator! where we got kicked out for the first time ever. grouchy workers! we weren't even causing any problems. well russell was in the kids cart but it's not like anyone really uses the elevator at that hour of the night! i love russell and his hugs, i don't want to leave him again!! anyway. next stop-the golf course. kristin was there! and so were a bunch of people i hadn't seen since like high school? michael, shelbie, NICK!! and others. we started playing sardines, but i'm not sure what happened with that really. i had to carry ali cause she decided to go barefoot in the prickly bushes. me, samir, ali, jeff, casey, annie, and chase ended up just sitting there and talking. of course casey commented about the easy access hole in my jeans! but what else did i expect?? it was so good to see samir, i've missed this kid. but we just hung out, and it was such a flashback of high school! we left there picked up lizzy and savannah and it was off to doing things in the rain. :) nufff said. but it was a good night. it was really good to see everyone that i've missed soo much!

only reason i'm sad i came home tonight-i was supposed to go to the first quarter of the byu vs usu game (joe made me promise that was the longest i would go!) and i missed hanging out with the brothers and their adorable neice rachel! she's the cutest thing. but ben called me and told me about the game and asked about my drive and that jazz. i talked to rachel and she was so cute! she said "i am just poopin' myself out! i am running and running, kicking and kicking, jumping and jumping, running and running!" it was so cute! and she can't wait to see me on sunday and she is going to show me her new red dress! but apparently usu played a pretty good game and the game was closer than the score showed? i dunno, i didn't watch, just what i heard. i was also really upset cause i went to buy one of our rivalry shirts and they were sold out!! the front said ybu? and the back said "win or lose, you still live in provo!" i wanted one so bad!

one thing i've realized just very recently. happiness depends on your attitude. you can make up your mind to be happy. no matter what the circumstances are. it took me a long time to learn this. something happened last week and for about week i just moped around and wanted people to feel sorry for me and was probably so annoying. i annoyed myself. so one moring i texted ali and i said i've made up my mind, i'm going to be happy. this sucks but there's nothing i can do to change the situation, so i can't let the little things bother me anymore and i have to happy. and things have been so much better for me since i dediced this. sometimes circumstances suck, but life doesn't. it all depends on how you decide to react to something. you can't let everything upset you. "don't sweat the small stuff" something everyone has heard, and i am just barely learning. it isn't gonna happen immediatly but i'm getting better, just ask ali! some people may disagree to this, but it's just something that i have noticed recently in my life.

me and ali always laugh cause the brothers always tease us that we are each a half of one person, but in all reality it's true! our roommate accidently called us mckali! so funny. but really, ali pretty much completes my thoughts. i just love her to death. but it was so good to see everyone tonight! i miss all you guys so so much! come visit please?!

it is getting kinda late so goodnight all!

(good song- never alone, lady antebellum)


"May your tears come from laughing
You find friends worth having
As every year passes
They mean more than gold
May you win and stay humble
Smile more than grumble
And know when you stumble
You're never alone"