"come what may and love it"

pretty sure ali is missing, she was supposed to be home from class and hour ago and i haven't heard from her, hmmm....and i want mexican from el sol...or maybe it's del sol. i forget. but if you go before 5 you get the lunch special that is delicious and it comes to $5.37. ohhhp she just texted me. no need to worry friends, she is safe.

so i can't really pin point exactly why, but i've felt older than ever the last couple of days. sunday after church got my totally stressed about brian not being lds. now he is a great kid and is very active in his church and he holds the same values as me. and i'm pretty sure he's not the one i'm gonna marry...so what to do? but i was all stressed about it and then i had a meeting with my bishop just to talk. so i decided to bring brian up. i was hoping for some words of advice to help me calm down but all i got out of it was a sex talk and the words "be careful." i left his office and called ali in tears. i don't even know why i was crying, i just couldn't help it. i went home and layed on kristina's bed and just kept crying. monday again, i was still worried about it and things seemed kinda tense between me and brian. but we talked, not about religion, but everything else is a-okay. and i've decided not to worry about the religion part, i'm sure God has some plan with this. anyway...i am so close to my first solo flight! scary! i just need to perfect my landings. i went to go flying today but then it started raining...dang logan weather. last night in my indoor soccer game the boys on my team started rapping, and they were just making it up as they went. and they were saying some of the dumbest things, but that was what made it funny! like jocelyn was saying about having classes with your boyfriend...it is hard! ha i don't pay attention. and studying together is definitely a no go, especially at his place cause of his roommates. today in class he drew a tic-tac-toe board on my hand and i told him he couldn't go in the middle square so i could win! and he agreed! although he wrote the he won on my hand as well...

can i just tell you how much fun i had in st george? i love those girls sooo much. hali and mccall [mccool!] are my favorites. it amazes me how much they look up to me and listen to what i say to them. one girl drives me crazy. she does not listen no matter how many times we tell her to. but i think it's really cool cause normally when you have a bunch of confident, outgoing personalities, they clash. but pretty sure there are only 4 girls on the team who are quiet and the other 14 are loud and outgoing as can be. it's crazy, i think it's awesome! i have so much fun anytime i'm with them. we had a valentine's party at someone's condo that was in the place where high school musical was filmed! and we watched high school musical 2! the girls would act out the songs, it was hilarious. they are gonna be the greatest when they get older. and they are getting so good at soccer. i was so sad when i had to leave them...but i'm gonna be coaching them saturday!

good news everyone, i am going to mexican place. last night i went for a drive and i listened to the entire taylor swift cd before i went home. i have talked to casey a lot recently and learned a lot of things i never knew before. i miss samir more than anything. and i can't wait till the summer when i get to see christine. i've learned that i am pretty vocal about my feelings and sometimes i get upset when others aren't as open as me, and i need to learn that some people just aren't as open about things. well i'm out of things to say and i need to go pick up ali for our mexican food, yuuuuum.

"you are beautiful. just the way you are.

regardless of what you do or don't do.

past, present, or future, no matter where you go.

even on your not so good days.

whatever you choose with all your unique qualities.

simply because you're you."