just keep swimming!

"i've learned that life isn't neccesarily easy,
but it's always worth figuring out. That,
if nothing else, has had the most profound
effect on my learning that sometimes
your circumstances suck, but life doesn't"

sooo i see pictures on facebook and it makes me realize how many friends i don't have and how many things i don't do. i want to go to lake powell with a group of 30+ friends. i wanna dress up and do random things. k don't get me wrong, i do lots of things, i go lots of places-and love every minute of it. but i don't do those things with friends and that is what i'd like to do.

ya know, it really sucks not having a best friend..i don't have anyone to tell things to. something happens and i go to tell someone and i'm like..sike! i have no one to tell. the other day was the first day brandan didn't text me, it was a big deal, and no one to tell. i couldn't tell anyone about the great things that happened in colorado. no one to tell how much i like mark. i don't have anyone to go on adventures with. i have no one to just talk to. i can't text anyone and ask them to come hang out with me. pretty much no good!

this isn't exactly how i imagined my summer. and i'm not sure what i do wrong to make it so no one sticks around. for now i'm gonna keep my head up high and keep moving forward. cause despite not having friends i have a lot of things going for me. i have the greatest family. no battle. i get such an ab work out when we're all together. we play rock band and just party 24/7. i start work this week and it is going to be number one. it's outside and i bet i'll be able to find some friends there. and i'm sure i'm gonna love it. i've got things to look forward to as well. going to logan for the open house, sun valley, boating, lake powell, road trips, flights to wherever i want, missionary letters, and so much more. <3