claustrophobia.

The last couple days i have felt real claustrophobic. I've had the biggest desire to just get on my bike and ride. It's such a sense of freedom. I've been in cars or airplanes a lot recently and i feel trapped or something. I don't know how to describe it! I feel trapped inside my own head recently. I have people i can talk to but i feel like it's always the same problem and i just don't want to bother them anymore. I mean, there's nothing wrong with my life. I have a good job, i'm still involved in soccer. I think i just worry that i'm not living my life to it's fullest. I have all these things i want to do but i just feel stuck almost. I just want to pack up some stuff, get on my bike and ride with no plans and not come back for a while. But then i realize i couldn't do that cause i'm too worried about disappointing people. I just want to make everybody happy and i don't think people would be too thrilled if i just jumped ship haha. I dunno, i think a big part of it is still living at home so i don't have that complete sense of freedom.

Wow, this post is all over the place. I told ya, i'm scatter-brained right now! Boys messing with my head left and right. I just don't know what to think! Basically i just gotta move out of Utah. Have something new. start learning lessons on my own, maybe fall flat on my face. I'd be okay with it haha. I just need a change if pace.

Much love,
Happy girl needing a change :)

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