goodbye 2010.

so the last few months have been really hard for me. i just wasn't doing anything. and i know that was my mistake but that's not my point here. one of the toughest things for me was not really having friends anymore. no one would really just call to say "hey kenz, i miss you. how are you doing? are you okay?" a simple text would have made me feel better. a simple hey i miss you, what's up? but really the only time i heard from people was when they were having a hard time and they needed someone to talk to. and don't get me wrong, i love when my friends come to me for help, i really do. i'm a good listener and i feel like i help people calm down and figure things out. i would do anything for my friends, i am a very loyal person. but after i helped them if they had simply asked are you doing alright? it would've showed they really cared about me. now, i'm not blaming anyone, i know you're in school and working and have new friends and stuff, so i understand, i really do. but one text to say you're thinking of me doesn't take that long. and maybe i'm being really selfish, and i'm sorry if you think i am, i'm not meaning to and i hope people don't mistake this as a guilt trip or me being mean, i honestly don't want it to come across like that. i just want people to know how i feel. i'm not complaining either, it's helped me become very independent, to create my own happiness and i've been blessed with the ability to stay positive and happy during hard times, i'm just saying goodbye to 2010 and welcoming 2011 with open arms. i am moving on with a very positive outlook and i am ready for whatever the world decides to throw at me next.

bucket list #19...get a new years eve kiss