i want someone to read this and actually care

if you don't care what i want, don't read this! :)

recently i have felt like such a girl...it's so weird. ok actually i'm not sure how to describe this. the last couple nights i have just been so sad. and there isn't any event or anything that makes me like this. and i really just wish i could cry, but it never happens. things are just mixed up right now. i want to be missed. like really missed. i want someone to do something crazy and nice for me, some sort of crazy, fun surprise (only not like that ali!) i want someone to go out of their way to make me happy, to make me smile, just once. i want a boyfriend, someone to hold my hand and worry about me when i'm gone and miss me like crazy and send me cute text messages and leave me cute presents. someone to cuddle with and have him hold me. i want it to rain, hard, and for someone to kiss me with raindrops falling on our faces. i want to be a pro at flying, and solo before my dad did. i want to lose weight, maybe i won't ever eat. i want to see christine, she always knows what to say to make me happy and how to make me laugh. i want to go on dates. all the time. i want a guy to treat me with respect. i want him to open the door for me and treat me right. i want to have enough money to buy the things i want and need. i want the guy that i get butterflies from everytime i see him, to ask me out. i want christmas. i want to be able to sing amazing! i want a pedicure. i want someone to notice me. i want someone to randomly text me. i want to play soccer for a team again. i want to receive an anonymous love note. i want to walk into my room and see a present on my bed. i want my testimony to be stronger. i want someone to break down the wall i've built around my heart. i want to always be happy. i want in-n-out. i want a boy to just kiss me. i wish i wasn't broken. i want to be a better friend. i want to look for shooting stars. i want to goof off. i want to watch movies and fall asleep with my head on his shoulder. i want that one guy to prove to me they're not all the same. i want to play rock band. i want to know how to play guitar. i want a guy to play guitar for me. i want to go to a dance. i want him to understand. i want to drive babs. i want to go boating. i want to go swimming. like everyone is saying, i want to get in my car with no destination and drive. flip a coin to decide where to turn. road trip. sleep in my car. i want fruit pizza. i want to be good at writing. i want to be more spontaneous. i want a guy to go head over heels for me. i want to see high school musical 3. i want romney to be president. i want a completely new wardrobe. i want a girls night out on the town. i want someone to worry about me. i want to run away just to see who tries to find me. i want to see mama mia and quote billy madison. i want that guy who can make me laugh through my tears. i want to go everywhere barefoot. i want to be a little kid again. i want to see the seminary video i was in. i want to go to the temple. i want to laugh so hard i cry. i want a guy to call me beautiful. i want a job. i want a's in all my classes. i want to be part of the wizarding world. i want to randomly recieve flowers. i want someone to read this and actually do something about it.

uhm i kinda think that is enough for tonight. sorry for all those that this made them bored out of their mind.

i want a present!

"sometimes i wish he would pay more attention to my favorite songs because the lyrics they sing are the words i am too scared to say."