they say i'm crazy, but i have a good time

k first off, i got tagged for that thing, but right now i have some things in mind i want to talk about...so i'm going to have to put that on hold for the time being.

so last week. thursday night i think it was. i got this text and it made me so so so happy. i was glowing. and so i told a friend about it and she said something that punctured my happy bubble. i'm pretty sure she wasn't meaning to be rude, just trying to bring me to reality or something. but anyway. i went and got in bed with my computer and headphones. turned on the music and started playing solitaire. a song came on and truthfully i don't even remember what song it was, and i just started bawling. and another song came on and the tears just kept flowing. i probably sat there in bed playing solitaire and crying for close to an hour. and it was weird for me cause it's not like me to just cry like that. and recently i've been trying so hard to be happy no matter what happens. but i finally put the computer away and fell asleep with tears streaming down my face. it was really weird cause i have no idea why i was crying. nothing even happened and it had been a really good day. so go figure!

anyway...this weekend was fun. i drove home on thursday and watched east lose to bonneville...so sad. family party next which was fun cause it had been a while. but i'm not gonna go through every detail of the weekend. i went to la. in-n-out, the beach, the pool. got stuck, sat in the airport forever, got bored, cause some trouble, decided i am going to carry a soccer ball everywhere so i have something to do, flew to st george, slept there, went to the pool, flew home, went flying with my grandpa and then drove to logan. that's the short version anyway.

new with me...i have about 3 1/2 logged hours of flying time! only 31 1/2 more till i have my private pilot license! joe called me this weekend and it made me so happy. love my brother! ben called a few times too. i missed logan. i miss samir. i miss joce. i miss christine. [i talked to her a bunch this weekend and it made me so so so happy] i miss soccer. russell is going to germany! already miss him. i'm watching hercules but not really paying attention. i miss kristin. there is this kid brian that likes me and i wish i thought of him more than a friend cause he's a really cool kid. other brian, hasn't emailed me forever :( i hope he's ok in florida. i actually studied for my test tomorrow! i love penelope. i miss babs. i want to go to hawaii. i wish i was like hailey in stick it. i love the movie get smart. i love disney. i need to go to bed. i'm sad i missed tim's farewell. i want a boyfriend. i am on an indoor soccer team. well my random thoughts are done for the night. night friends.

"it's a lot easier to say you don't care than to admit you're hurt."