update.

okay...so is anyone else kinda freaked out by the huge numbers of birds and fish dying all over the world?! it is seriously so weird. it's not just like a few animals. it's populations! and it's not just in one place, it's everywhere! how weird is this? my mom's theory is aliens. but it's worrying me a bit! it's just so odd. what if the world really is ending?! there's no good explanation. any theories out there?

on another note...how do i put it on my page so that it shows the blogs i follow and when they have a new post and stuff? just not sure how.

sooo my life now...is staying at home. again. i'm trying to get a job. there's an opening at skywest cleaning airplanes that hopefully i'll get. i got connections. i would just really like a job to get me out of this house and to meet some new people. have some friends haha. but why are all of lifes decisions so hard? i mean, i want more than anything to be back in logan. i miss everything about there so much it hurts. but i just don't really have a way to be there right now. and it's so unbelievably frustrating. i'm learning the hard way that things don't always work out they way you want them to. and quite frankly, it sucks. but this new year has also brought a change of attitude for me. i know my situation isn't ideal right now but it's okay, things always work out.

so there's this kid from work and he's the funniest. but he just left to do training for the marines and i'm way upset about it. i can only talk to him on the weekends. and the hard part is he doesn't even know when he'll be back home in utah. how weird would that be saying bye? "well bye, don't know when i'll see you again!" cause after training he gets based somewhere and basically waits to be deployed. he's in san diego and wants me to come visit him, hopefully i'll be able to.

anyway...just a little update. if anyone has any speculations on the deaths of all these birds, please feel free to share! ps sorry this is so scatterbrained. my mind is all over the place right now.