repeat.

i know i talk about this like 24/7 but i can't get over it, i miss logan so much. i even miss the frigid cold and the unhealthy inversions. people tell me that i just have to move on at some point, that it won't last forever anyway, but i just can't make myself do it. not yet anyway. i get this aching feeling in my stomach everytime i think about all that i miss, all that i used to do. i miss being with mark, james and matt. i love them so much, i literally don't stop smiling when i'm with them, they make me so happy. i miss the weiss family, i can be myself 100% with them and they make me want to be a better person. they really are my second family, i love being an adopted daughter. of course there were times that sucked but i was genuinely happy up there, living on my own, unlimited freedom, friends, adventures, school, flying. i was constantly with some amazing people, people i haven't seen in ages. and that kills me! it makes me so sad. i don't want those times to end, and yet they have. hopefully not forever. i really just want to go back to school and be with everyone again. i feel like my life got put on pause and everyone else just continued on living their lives, forgetting about me. i was thinking about aggie basketball the other day and i remembered this one game where james and mark came and sat in front of us and i went to stand up on the back of the seat in front of me and i missed and fell forward and they thought it was soooo funny. luckily i was able to just laugh it off with them. but i just remembered james' face. so priceless. i miss aggie basketball, greatest moments of my life. and there aren't words to express how much i miss the aviation, it was all my life was up there. the people were great and we went on trips and had a club and were always together, and i miss that so much it's unrealll. anyway, to...mark, james, matt, ali, kristina, toni, tyson, andy, kizna, katie, sutton, joe, sam, will, ed, ben, everyone in logan...i love and miss you all so much! and i hope to be back with everyone soon and i hope you haven't completely forgotten about me. :) i think part of it is, i can't pretend that life is going great, i have nothing to complain about and i'm staying positive, this just isn't what i want to be doing, so i'm making the best of a less than ideal situation. well, i just wanted to say hi to everyone and let you guys know you're on my mind.
xoxo
-mck (nickname courtesy of james.)
i love these boys...crammed in the car in san fran.
we had some great times...
trip to hill air force base.
vegas.
air show.
they're my best friends.

just landed in san diego.

mark driving the mini van hahaha.