SOS

so today i got an email that i didn't think i was going to get for at least another year. and it's like totally thrown me off my game. let me explain. when i first became a flight attendant i got based in sfo, and then transferred to lax for a number of reasons. obviously, salt lake was my first choice but it is one of our more senior bases and overstaffed so new hires have pretty much no chance of getting based there. and so i have been expecting at least another year until i could get based there. and i was okay with it. but i just got an email today saying that my transfer has been awarded and i have until 3/6 to accept or reject. and i honestly HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO. Since i got the email i think i have made a decision and changed my mind at least a dozen times. Until like an hour ago I was all decided on going home. and then i went outside to watch the sunset and i saw a huge group of people hanging out and playing volleyball and one guy i've become friends with and i told him about the transfer and he liked freaked out cause i haven't even been here for a summer yet and so now i am so torn. like i am sick to my stomach trying to come to a conclusion. there's so many pros and cons to each thing. if i go home, am i giving up on cali too easy? but if i reject it, i am frozen for 6 months and who knows if i would get awarded the transfer again after that time period. and i hate missing my family and all the stuff going on at home and of course i love slc. but i've finally made a couple friends here and i have a place on the beach! and there's so much stuff to do in la that i haven't done yet.

ugh guys. help. not gonna make it.