no panicking!

kristin told me not panic. and i decided panic was a good word to describe me and my situations. and now i haven't really started panicking yet with brian, but i have a feeling it might happen once i get back to logan... and i REALLY don't want to panic. he treats me soo well and i really like him. i guess it's not the person that makes me panic, more the situation. so once we get back to logan, it is ali's responsibility to keep me calm. :) i just need him to do something, quick, ha and get me committed, if that makes any sense... Brain comes home from hawaii on friday! but i won't even be in utah.

tomorrow is the beginning of the adventure to new orleans, louisiana! at the moment, the plan is to fly to houston, rent a car and rooooad trip 6 hours to new orleans. the flights are just waaay crowded. but it'll be fun. i love road trips, especially with my family! new years eve there is gonna be crazyyy i think! i will be with my mom, dad, savannah, 2 uncles, an aunt, and guess who else....josh bello! he's staying with my aunt and uncle. i mean we are related! but i am so stoked to see utah play in the sugar bowl! it's gonna be a tough game for them against alabama. hopefully they show up to play and can give em a good game. no idea when i'll be home, we can't plan that far in advance!

you know what's weird? i've only hung out with people outside of my house...i think twice all break. and it's not that i don't want to see people, i really do. i haven't seen russell and i miss him like crazy! is it just that i'm too...lazy? i don't know what the word is, but i just don't feel like leaving my house.

anyway, depending on when i get home, maybe i'll be able to hang out before i go back to logan. school starts for us on the 5th! early, i know. but honestly, i'm kinda ready to go back. it's weird for me to think school starts again in 6 days and then to think about how much i am going to be doing before school starts. ohhh last weekend i was at my cabin, and even though i didn't want to go i had fun. despite it being FREEZING! i love being pulled on a sled by the snowmobiles. my dad launched me off a huge jump a few times. and the driveway is prime for sledding, an it's a workout walking up! anyway....bye ya'll!

"don't think too much.

you'll think your enitre life away.

just close your eyes and follow your h e a r t.

i promise it knows the way."