it's finally here...

it's finally here. this is the end. tonight is my last night to see so many of my friends. if i even get to hang out tonight it will be the last time i will see so many friends. and that sounds so dramatic, i mean i'm not moving to africa, just logan. but things just won't be the same. i bet i don't come home as often as i say i will. although i will have to come coach my girls some saturdays. this morning was my last practice with them and it was hard. they all gave me big hugs and wanted to throw me a party! it was probably just cause they wanted to have a party, but hey whatever works! these girls are amazing. i can't even begin to describe how much they have meant to me and my life won't be quite as exciting without them in it. but there are a few people who are making it even harder for me to leave... 3 actually. with 2 of us we just ignore the topic of me having to leave, which actually might be worse than talking about it. but it will just be so weird to not have them in my life, seeing them everyday. i mean i know we will talk everyday but still...

but the weird thing is i leave for sun valley tomorrow. i get home the 17th and move to logan the 18th. like this is it. it just doesn't feel like it. i guess the impact just hasn't hit me yet. and truthfully, it probably won't for a couple weeks. i'll be thinking and be like wow...i miss them. seriously, ali is the only one coming with me. i am leaving everyone else. and to tell you the truth there are only a select few i will really miss. rosie, samir, anthony, russell, kristin, nick, alex, tyler, and christine. but not just them, they are so many others. i have spent so much of my life with all of these people. shared so many experiences, laughter, tears, heartache, joy. moments and people to remember for a lifetime. these people have all become apart of me. they listen to me, and i listen to them. i have been so grateful and blessed to have such a close group of friends with great morals and to be surrounded by people who share my values. i have been influenced in some way by everyone. i just hope i can find a group of friends half way as great as all of you. and i hope we can all stay in touch lots. and boys, you all better write me when you go on your missions, and tell me how great of missionaries you all are!

the other night on my date, tyler was with this girl, bethany. she went to olympus and she is so cute! i just wish i had gotten to know her earlier. she just has this glow about her and the cutest personality! today is ali's birthday and i took her to get manicures and it was so fun just the two of us chatting. she is my best friend i gives the best advice and i love her! happy birthday girlie! 18, i hope it's a great one! it better be cause you have me in it! ha just kidding. but really, it should be a good one! it's 18 come on! and she is going to make me go to church at utah state. and she is going to help strenghten my testimony, i just know it. ali is amazing and strong and my hero.

and rosie...everyone knows we have sort of have a rocky friendship sometimes, but no matter what, we always put that aside and she is always there for me. i tell her so much and she always talks me through things and tells me what to wear and all the jazz. she better come visit me all the time, along with everyone else!