i'm yours

i love that song. i have recently become obsessed with it. wonder why?! ba ha. so i'm done with classes for the day. it's nice being done early but it sucks having a 730 class. luckily it's only twicea week. but what can ya do? it was the only time it would fit in my schedule. but i'm kind of a loser. i was in this class today and normally i sit by this kid nate, but i didn't today and no one sat by me. i felt kinda sad about it actually. my classes are pretty sweet, i have to admit. i have 3 aviation classes, us institutions and math. i don't have homework in the aviation classes, just some reading, but not much. institutions i have a 300 word paper every three weeks, and math i don't have to turn in the homework and the stuff we're doing now is what i learned in 8th grade, so it's not exactly difficult. so i really don't have much homework.

for the past week...i still play soccer everyday. me and ben started this juggle across america competition. i think he's winning for now.. buuuut friday night me and some boys and ali watched top gun which is possibly my favorite movie. i am going to marry maverick. it's fate. then they started watching school of rock and said boy went in his room and for some reason i wasn't in a good mood so i went outside and was playing with the soccer ball and then that just made me frustrated so i just layed on the picnic table and watched the stars. it really is so amazing to just lay and look at the stars. then ben came out and we talked for a bit and then i went up and me ali and amy talked in the kitchen till 3. me and ali pushed our beds together and were watching 27 dresses the night before. but then we stayed up till 4:30 talking. it was nice. love her. saturday morning heather texted me at 8:44 and i couldn't fall back asleep so i went for a jog then played soccer. what else do i do?! but then we cleaned our room and heather came up! it was fun to hang out with her. i hadn't seen her for a while. we hung out for a while, she met some people, we played ping pong and then we went to dinner at panda express. after we saw get smart, with me, ali, heather, max, ben, will, and spencer. ahh i love that movie. it's so funny. then me ali heather and max went to this dance party and we literally got the party started! no one was dancing and we came in and got everyone dancing. then we decided to leave when we checked out the backyard. we did a wal mart/ taco bell run and then came to our room and hung out. sunday we slept in late, went to church. progress is being made with "kevin" as heather would call him! ba ha. heather went home after and me and ali made mac n cheese, and went outside and had a little picnic and read our books. monday was alright. i played some ping pong and then spray painted my coach shorts which are awesome might i add. i started the boys jerseys, they are going to be awesome. i went to bed fairly early cause i didn't feel good and that brings us to now. me and ali got these awesome high school musical posters for our room.

aghhh there is just so much i want to say about "kevin". i've never been one for falling in love at this age, and to tell you the truth i really don't think this is love. it really isn't. is it something close? i don't think so. not yet anyway. buuut i dunno, i just feel something different with him than others... i'm not gonna say more cause i don't want my hopes up.... kjdshgalsfhgdlkfjhg just shoot me. i over-analyze EVERYTHING. i am a freak. really, i think there is something wrong with me.

ok so there is this crazy kid michael, who likes me. ali and i figured that it is only cause i'm brunette. he was looking through some pictures of mine and only said the brunettes were hot. then we were watching the vma's and he said he didn't like hannah montana, but he did like miley cyrus. blonde, brunette difference. weird. and i don't like him and he flirts with me wayyy to often and actually kinda really freaks me out! but it just started raining so maybe i'll go play in it? ya probably.

just got back from the great outdoors. i made this really cute bracelet and sat and talked with "kevin" for at least an hour. just the 2 of us. no brothers or anything. and he came out to talk to me, good sign? i think so. but he just got a job with a construction company which means he will be gone alot more now and i don't like the thought of that at all. i think forever i have been to scared for anything. too scared to get hurt, too scared to commit, maybe i was just waiting for the right guy... maybe i'm just a big baby. guess i'll never really know. just keep your fingers crossed for me!! but now i am jus waiting for ali to get hoooooooome.

"don't let the fear of striking out

keep you from playing the game."