Sunday, July 27, 2008

my escape

this morning up i finally realized what my escape is. i figured out that riding my motorcycle is how i release all my emotions. i can't text, i can't talk to people i can't do anything but look at the beautiful scenery in the canyon and think. i think about everything. there's no one to explain to. it's just me and the road. riding motorcycles for me is so amazing. every week my family goes on a ride up a different canyon. today we went up big cottonwood canyon and ate at some little cafe up at brighton. it's just such a relief from the world. and i'm in love with the sound my bike makes when i accelerate. now people might be saying..."a motorcycle...? weird." but it is unbelievably amazing. i could drive for hours on my sportster. just thinking through all of the things in my life, no distractions. and i sing to myself while i ride. :) make fun of me, i don't care.

my ride today got me thinking especially about boys. well i was thinking out breaking dawn coming out soon and about edward and jacob. and it made me realize that i have a jacob. and it makes me hurt. i haven't found my edward and i probably won't for some time. but i did make the connection with jacob. he is there for me through everything. always. i wish i could be half the friend to him that he is to me.. i mean i'm not a bad friend at all. and ok i'm not in love with him and i don't think he is in love with me. but you get my point right? ...i'm done rambling.

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